Hello & Good morning all you beautiful people!! How are you all this fine morning. I apologize for not being on for some time, I have been dealing with some personal issues but I think its all better now. I got my iced coffee in one hand and laptop in the other with some good music playing. Its a gloomy day out (my favorite) and life couldn't seem more perfect.
Well recently I had a friend come to me about some boy problems, and since I couldn't find much words to help her then, I felt I should find them now. I know what it's like to love someone and not be able to let go of them, no matter how much damage has been done or how much hurt they've brought you. It's an inexplicable thing, love, but it can also bring you much joy a joy that radiates off to those around you and makes you feel warm, even on the coldest days. Love becomes a pillow to rest your head on. A blanket to keep you warm, a shelter to keep you safe. Love can be many of things, but it can also be the one to shatter you to pieces. I know because I've experienced it. I was young, yes, and I was told that I couldn't possibly love at that age, but they were wrong. Loving someone is willing to let go of everything for the other half. Loving someone is willing to break yourself in order to fill in their missing pieces. and that's exactly what I did. Breaking yourself, and becoming vulnerable to that person, giving them the power to leave you a scattered mess. Someone once told me that I sound like some one that's been hurt over and over again and I've also been told that I speak like I've been broken. I have been, but you know what, I built myself back up again and twice as better this time. This is for all those who have lost someone, or have been hurt. I know it hurts and missing them is being sucked into an ocean of waves and not being able to grasp air. But I promise you, one day you'll be able to say their name and not hurt anymore. You'll be able to love again and put your faith in one other. It will take time and you'll be rushed back into clouds of despair but soon you'll be happy, I know because I'm v happy. This is me, the broken girl who had nothing left to loose at one point, telling you that one day you'll find someone who makes you look forward to a new tomorrow and loves even the darkest corners of your soul. This is also me telling you that you, and only you can fix yourself and be the best you can possibly be, don't ever be held back by a glass ceiling be strong because I know you are of the strongest and I believe in you. You are the best you around and never will you ever need someone else to tell you that, and neither will you need someone to know you are worth something. You always have been, are and will always be worth the most. You, it's all in you, loves yourself baby and love the forth comings in your life, they will be great. Life doesn't end at one relationship, whether friends or boys or girls, life keeps going with you and life carries you through a roller coaster, but hold tight because you will want to go on this ride. Always remember that you have people who love you all around and they care, they do. I care. Always remember to love those around you, no one really knows what the others are going through.
I'm sorry for such a long post, i just had to put some thoughts out there.
With love, XOXO Dee
